Captured

I was crying okay? There were tears. It wasn't visible though. >_>

Video project for Photo and Video Journalism. Had so much fun filming it with my buds Mads, Lola, and John and later on editing it with Mads at home.

Also, thanks to the people who helped us. If they're reading this, they would know who they are. :P

This was our very first time doing this, we were new in using the camera and we weren't listening during the discussion so we didn't know how to tinker with the white balance. :\ Aaaand, it was my first time using Adobe Premiere Pro. When I first opened the program I was like, 'Whoa, I hope this won't eat me whole." Noob. >_>

But thanks to the videos online, I pretty much learned the basics...soooo here it is:

When I was Bitter

You said that people change
Uncontrollably and out of range
Never thought it could come true
Until it happened to you

I woke up one bright morning
Alone and left with nothing
No more pictures lined on the wall
And you never answered my call

I found myself alone and thinking
Why everything didn't end up working
Am I not good enough for you?
My cooking not as good as your mom's stew?

I laughed bitter and cold
Hardly because I choked
Then realized that this cherry coke
Is better than you, ole' bloke.

~~

I find it really funny now.

"Comedy is tragedy plus time." -Carol Burnett

Us

I can't stop smiling. :D

God has a way of cheering me up when I'm about to go someplace hated. Also, I felt how good 'real' is.

Sooooo

There was this guy at the bus. He was busy listening to his music while I caught my breath (ran a bit to catch the bus). And then I noticed how long his hair was, tied up behind him. My eyes went *_*

Not only that, he was also really cute so I sat beside him. :)

I didn't know if I pretended to be asleep or if I really was. All I know was that I liked the feeling of resting my head on his shoulder. It was cold, but he was so warm. And we were so close as if I had known him for so long. He didn't mind. Once or twice I looked up and saw his eyes closed. I was sure he wasn't sleeping, maybe like me, he also pretended.

And this song played while I tried to sleep, contented.

They made a statue of us
And it put it on a mountain top
Now tourists come and stare at us
Blow bubbles with their gum
Take photographs have fun, have fun

They'll name a city after us
And later say it's all our fault
Then they'll give us a talking to
Then they'll give us a talking to
Because they've got years of experience
We're living in a den of thieves
Rummaging for answers in the pages
We're living in a den of thieves
And it's contagious
And it's contagious
And it's contagious
And it's contagious

We wear our scarves just like a noose
But not 'cause we want eternal sleep
And though our parts are slightly used
New ones are slave labor you can keep

We're living in a den of thieves
Rummaging for answers in the pages
We're living in a den of thieves
And it's contagious
And it's contagious
And it's contagious
And it's contagious

They made a statue of us
They made a statue of us
The tourists come and stare at us
The sculptor's marble sends regards
They made a statue of us
They made a statue of us
Our noses have begun to rust
We're living in a den of thieves
Rummaging for answers in the pages
Were living in a den of thieves

And it's contagious
And it's contagious
And it's contagious
And it's contagious
And it's contagious
And it's contagious
And it's contagious
And it's contagious

They don't come near me

But they come near Mads

I also want to see

One of my most liked fads

This guy with his girl

Having a footspa in a salon

His long hair entangled in a twirl

On her fingers alone

He told a corny joke

That his girl ignored

In his laughter he almost choked

But the girl was all bored

He cupped her face

Pulled her close

His lips on hers traced

Their mouths in a long prose

She wasn't even pretty

And she's got a guy like that

I was green with envy

I wanna hit her with a bat

Mads and I are jealous

Lola doesn't care

Cause she doesn't like boys

Why do I always lose?

It's not fair. :(

~~~

For Mads who just got a pretty haircut and who also told me the story that inspired this frustration. lol

And also Lola for not going all 'Awwwwwwwwwwwww, shall we burn the bitch?'

I LOVE YOU GUYS!

There is a light that never goes out

(This is a post-blog in the previous one I had posted)

So I told you I was all happy and all. It ended when I got to go somewhere errrr. (It's just kinda' funny how the happy stuff flies out when you're nearing an inevitable negativity) . So I was trying to cheer myself up, cause I just generally hate weekends. Maybe you'll find that weird, but yea, I enjoy being in school more. While walking home, I tried to put thoughts of how my weekends suck away and sang this song. Just as I was singing, 'don't care, don't care, don't ca--' I was cut off BECAUSE I TRIPPED AND CRASHED ON THE SIDEWALK.

I hit my knee and it took some time before I stood up after losing my balance cause I was boggled and my knees hurt like f*ck. I bet I was red with tomatoes but I didn't care, all I thought about that time was, NEGATIVITY BEGINS, HAPPINESS GOES BYE BYE.

(you can see how much annoyed I am with all the capitals. ;D)

Oh looook at Paulo Coelho's tweet: Instead of preaching the importance of happiness, be happy and people will follow your example.

He tells me I should be happy. But not here, no, I can't. :( Maybe when I'm finally somewhere better.

Geez, I'm easily distracted. Anyway, it sucks how abrupt my good feelings stopped. But I really hope I'll get it back again soon. And I love this song even if I tripped while listening to it. Oh note: Be careful yourself while listening. Ha! ;D

This part rings a bell: Driving in your car, oh please don't drop me home because it's not my home, it's their home.

You know, if we're just together, and if we're just so in love, everything would be bearable. I wouldn't even notice the negativity, I wouldn't care about how home sucks. Cause I have you and that's all that would ever matter.

Take me out tonight
Where there's music and there's people
Who are young and alive
Driving in your car
I never never want to go home
Because I haven't got one anymore

Take me out tonight
Because I want to see people
And I want to see life
Driving in your car
Oh please don't drop me home
Because it's not my home, it's their home
And I'm welcome no more

And if a double-decker bus
Crashes into us
To die by your side
Is such a heavenly way to die
And if a ten ton truck
Kills the both of us
To die by your side
Well the pleasure, the privilege is mine

Take me out tonight
Take me anywhere, I don't care
I don't care, I don't care
And in the darkened underpass
I thought Oh God, my chance has come at last
But then a strange fear gripped me
And I just couldn't ask

Take me out tonight
Oh take me anywhere, I don't care
I don't care, I don't care
Driving in your car
I never never want to go home
Because I haven't got one
No, I haven't got one

And if a double-decker bus
Crashes in to us
To die by your side
Is such a heavenly way to die
And if a ten ton truck
Kills the both of us
To die by your side
Well the pleasure, the privilege is mine

There is a light that never goes out
There is a light that never goes out
There is a light that never goes out
There is a light that never goes out

Please, please, please let me get what I want

I dreamt of you last night. It was awesome. I think it's because of too much thoughts of what I'll do when I'd be lucky and get the internship in Washington. Anyway, it was cloudy, perfect weather. You and I are walking towards home. You held me so tight I swear I knew how sturdy you are, and how sexy you smelled like. We were laughing. I tipped your head to face me, my nose almost touching your smile. Your breath smelled of mint, I pulled you down and you kissed me.

When we got home. We went to sleep and you held me all night.

All day in school I was smiling. My friends thought I was crazy. On my way home, I played this song on repeat. I wished I'd dream about you again. But I wished more that someday soon it'll come true. Cause you just don't know how much I like you. :)

Good times for a change
See the luck I've had
Could make a good man turn bad

So please, please, please
Let me, let me, let me
Get what I want this time

Haven't had a dream in a long time
See the life I've had
Could make a good man turn bad

So for once in my life
Let me get what I want
Lord knows it would be the first time

Lord knows it would be the first time

So please, please, please
Let me, let me, let me
Get what I want this time

Lord knows it would be the first time

Can't Stand It

This song is just so you! Do you know that? I really can't stand you and everything you do because it's so cute. :\

The simple things you do for me makes me really happy, I wanted to cry because of too much appreciation. You never ignored me and my requests/favors/wants. Well, the last one is ehhhh but still, you're always there for me.

I don't know if you'll know I'm talking about you if you read this. I'm starting to have this feeling that you're oblivious, insensitive and you sometimes can't be arsed...but maybe I'm wrong after all. Well, who knows? If you get this inkling, and the signs I'm sending, grats. :P

I don't have to tell anything now, do I? You already know what I feel after all.

Baby, I love you
I never want to let you go
The more I think about,
The more I want to let you know…
That everything you do,
Is super fucking cute
And I can’t stand it

I’ve been searching for
A girl that’s just like you
Cause I know
That your heart is true

Baby, I love you
I never want to let you go
The more I think about,
The more I want to let you know…
That everything you do,
Is super duper cute
And I can’t stand it

Let’s forget,
And run away
To sail the ocean blue
Then you’ll know,
That my heart is true

Baby, I love you
I never want to let you go
The more I think about,
The more I want to let you know…
That everything you do,
Is super duper cute
And I can’t stand it

You, you got me where you want me
Cause I’ll do anything to please you
Just to make it through…
Another year

You, I saw you across the room
And I knew that this is gonna
Blossom into something beautiful.
You’re beautiful.

Baby, I love you
I never want to let you go
The more I think about,
The more I want to let you know…
That everything you do,
Is super duper cute
And I can’t stand it
No I can’t stand it
No I can’t stand it